So, I'm not sure how I'm feeling. I hate that I can't put my feelings into words. As warm tears fall down my face, I can only rely on the Lord. As any young woman, I struggle with my appearance. I am consistently reminded of how "unattractive" my weight is. I am reminded by the media, as everyone else is... but I am reminded by strangers... I am reminded by family... and even friends.
Men in Walmart were not as forgiving today. Obscene comments and gestures hurt deep, but the hurt is probably more because I do not believe that I am beautiful.
"Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised."
Proverbs 31:30
But....... I still want to be beautiful, even if it is fleeting. I wanna be beautiful just for a little while. I want to feel beautiful. What I am feeling, is far from it.
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