My prayers have turned into attributes of God. I will plea with God and claim His name. My prayers are just yelling his name and what he is capable of.
"You are God... a personal God. You are fulfilling, you are satisfying. You are all I need. You are faithful, trustworthy, worthy of my praise. Good or bad... you are He, You are the Lamb and Lion. You are the Protector. You are the Great Physician. You are the Great Healer. Heal her. Feel her breath, hear her heart beat. Create strength in her. Put YOUR strength in her. You are capable. You are the only one capable. Show yourself to our family. Draw them to yourself. Glorify yourself in their lives, in my life. Let me be your tool. You are capable of moving mountains. I have faith that you can remove the cancer and be her strength. Feel my heart, know my passion, live your life in me."
The hour and a half drive to New Orleans gives me time to prayer, even if it may be for 20 minutes.
Monday, December 14, 2009
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
My life this semester...
So as I type this... I have plenty of things to do before TOMORROW! I have finals Wednesday and Thursday... papers due in each. but yet... other things on my mind.
My grandmother has cancer. Every weekend (other than this past weekend) I have been in New Orleans taking care of her, running errands, and making her comfortable. It is exhausting and it is hard to see her getting sick. She isn't like coughing kind of sick... she is just weak and tired all the time. She has her good days and her bad days, but I really hate those bad days. I have to remind her that it is okay to nap multiple times during the day. We ordered a wig online the other day. Her hair isn't completely gone, but it is thinning and she didn't feel pretty... so a wig helps.
So the Counseling Program is awesome! My colleagues/peers are amazing and so very supportive. I've had a pretty rough semester with Mama (that's what I call my grandmother) and they have all supported me through it, encouraging me to talk and let them know how I'm feeling. We all hung out last night at Carreta's and talked and had a good old time. It was really nice.
I am so amazed by people this days. For some reason I'm always the go between, the rebound in some kind of fashion and the doormat in other ways.
Genuine people is all I ask for... genuine people.
My grandmother has cancer. Every weekend (other than this past weekend) I have been in New Orleans taking care of her, running errands, and making her comfortable. It is exhausting and it is hard to see her getting sick. She isn't like coughing kind of sick... she is just weak and tired all the time. She has her good days and her bad days, but I really hate those bad days. I have to remind her that it is okay to nap multiple times during the day. We ordered a wig online the other day. Her hair isn't completely gone, but it is thinning and she didn't feel pretty... so a wig helps.
So the Counseling Program is awesome! My colleagues/peers are amazing and so very supportive. I've had a pretty rough semester with Mama (that's what I call my grandmother) and they have all supported me through it, encouraging me to talk and let them know how I'm feeling. We all hung out last night at Carreta's and talked and had a good old time. It was really nice.
I am so amazed by people this days. For some reason I'm always the go between, the rebound in some kind of fashion and the doormat in other ways.
Genuine people is all I ask for... genuine people.
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