My body is driving me nuts. I am on a hormone pill called Provera and the side effects are driving me out of my mind. Insomnia, rages of tears, hot flashes, confusion, headaches. This is ridiculous, but it is working for what it is intended to do. Well, hopefully. I have huge cysts on my left ovary which is making me bleed 20 days of the month... not fun. So... the bleeding is better and hopefully the size of the stupid things have gone down by my August appointment. I am thankful that the pills are only 10 days out of the month... but it takes nearly a week for it to get out of my system. so here's to another week of side effects.
My mind is disorganized and I am emotional... which is not helping with the schoolwork. Summer school with 6 hours was a huge mistake. So much to do and my brain doesn't seem to want to function. My prayers are daily for the Lord to organize my thoughts so that I can function. The semester is 8 weeks long and for 6 of those weeks, I am in the midst of menopause. lol. I hope I only have to take the medicine for a month or so more... I'm not sure I could do this the rest of my life. I'd rather live with the pain and bleeding from the cyst. lol. but apparently, those cysts can cause damage and prevent you from getting pregnant. And I know I want to have children, Lord willing.
I am taking 2 grad classes this summer-- which by the way is ridiculous, in case you didn't get it the first time. A lot of reading (which I feel like I'm only doing half of it) and a lot of writing (which I hate). To top it off... my heavy courseload is a class called Grief and Loss Counseling. lol... it is pretty depressing and I'm already an emotional wreck.
I'm going to try to sleep for a few hours before work in 4 hours. Goodnight all.
