changes...

He gives me a desire...

a desire to live somewhere new, not now of course, but in the future. As much as I love the Northshore... and Louisiana and I would looooove to live here, I am certain that He has called me to live elsewhere. I do not know where, but in time He will tell me. Maybe Baton Rouge, maybe Tennessee, maybe Pennsylvania, maybe Alabama, maybe Italy... I really don't know. I will follow Him in obedience.

Isn't it weird when the last thing you would ever want... is something that He starts to work in you? It is definately not an accident. He may want to just test that I will have a willing heart. I don't really understand at this point.

I no longer fear being alone. One year ago, I wrote in a prayer journal that I feared that I would never get married... that I would be alone forever. I needed someone or something. I can honestly say that is not the case anymore. Over the past year He has grown me in Him. He is what I want, what I need. Yes, I need Christ-centered community, but I do not feel that my life is not complete without a spouse. I still have a desire to be a wife, but my desire for a strong relationship with the Lord trumps it any day. He is my portion. I am in the place I need to be. That does not mean that I will never marry... it means that I am content with Him alone.

I cannot truly love until I worship Him and know my true identity that is found within Him. So... consider this my time to find my true identity that is found within Him... it has only just begun.

One of the books I'm reading... the book I quoted in my other blog. Relationships: a mess worth making. It is about dating relationships, friendships, and even broken relationships. It sure is eye-opening.